Foolish.

i want to leave, SO bad.
but why does he always have to go to the point where im stuck with a decision to choose to care or not.
see, i worry about him. but feelings are GONE.
why is it so hard for him to fully understand this?
why does he make me go through decisions, where i only tend to GIVE IN to him.
i'm stuck, seriously.
you see, i want to just be friend cause feelings are so... i dont even know where it went.
but he pulls stunts that make me worry and i always end up giving in.
what do i do when he threatens to kill himself, and all that bullshit?
what do i do when i know he's really serious about those threats?
shit im stuck cause its either stay and be miserable, stay and have to deal with his shit every damn time or leave and watch him do something like that.
im stuck in a delima. but i know i'm supposed to do what makes ME happy. cause right now i'm miserable.
feels like im only with him because i dont want him to do something stupid cause of me.
i mean, am i wrong for stayin? or am i wrong for doing this?
i really dont know what to do.
why does he make this so hard on me?
why doesn't he just accept what has happened between us?
its pretty obvious that i havent been acting like i love this guy.
and its been this way since about half a year ago.
why am i holding on to something that's not good for me.
im just stuck cause i want to leave but if i do, i could possibly loose him - physically. & i dont want that to happen.
But all i know for sure is that i NEED to be away from him in order for me to fully realize what i want and who i want in my life.

Its just so hard.
i need major help...